This is my last post till next Tuesday. I am headed off to the Keys this weekend. My parents have a vacation home there so we will be hanging out by the pool, go boating, and cook outs. The kids love it and it will be relaxing. The past couple of weeks have been stressful so this will be a good get-away.
I wish all of you a Happy Memorial Day weekend and lets not forget the reason for the holiday. If it went for our brothers serving our country past and present, we would not have the freedoms that we should cherish every day.
Have a happy, fun, and safe weekend.
Journal of my exploration into the domination submission world of D/s and how I struggle between my submissive heart and my logical feminist mind that tells me submission is wrong while my body and heart tell me it is sooooh right!
Friday, May 28, 2010
The Marina
I wrote this story a long time ago when I was visiting Boston. I thought I would share with you although it is pretty vanilla in comparison to my other stories.
It's cold and dark. We are standing on the dock outside the restaurant, gazing across the marina, the wind is blowing. I have only a thin sweater on. My nipples are hard. You stand behind me, your arms around me, you are kissing my cheek, and your hands are roaming inside my sweater. Further up, your fingers reach my breasts, and come in contact with my perky nipples. I feel your hardness growing in your jeans, pressing into my bottom. There is another couple a few yards away, watching you fondle my large, firm tits. They smile and turn away, giving us privacy. I turn around and kiss you on the lips. "I want you, now" I whisper. A grin passes over your face. You have an idea. You have the combination to a friend's yacht. You grab a flashlight from the glove box and then we head down the ramp to the dock. You stop by a large sailboat, must be 50 feet, beautiful wood trim. We climb on board. There are no lights, the hatches are closed. I hold the flashlight, you undo the padlock. The hatch opens and we climb down the companionway. It's dark in the cabin. It is stuffy, smells a bit damp. You lead me through a door into the cabin. It has large galleon-style windows in the stern, and the moonlight is streaming in. You take me in your arms and kiss me. I'm impatient to fuck. I start unbuttoning your shirt, pulling it off, running my hands across your well defined, muscular torso. I undo your belt, and pull your jeans down. You are wearing boxers, and there is a tent pole sticking out, so I know you want it as much as I do. I slide my hand inside, feeling your hardness, fondling your balls. I pull down your shorts with my other hand, exposing your cock in the moonlight. I push you backwards onto the berth. It's high off the floor, ideal for me to take your cock in my mouth. So I do. You have a nice size cock, thick, circumcised. I slowly take it in my mouth, little by little till my lips are buried in your pubic hair. Slowly I withdraw, then once more envelop your hardness in my greedy mouth. You groan as my tongue dances along your shaft. My hand fondles your balls gently. Your hands gently run through my hair as I suck you, I know you want to fuck my face hard but you are such a gentleman, you restrain yourself. "Come up here", you ask. I hop up on the berth and kiss you. You grab my sweater and pull it over my head. I am braless, my nipples are hard, you caress my breasts, taking a nipple in your mouth. I am impatient and undo my jeans. You look admiringly at my naked body in the moonlight. You bury your face in my crotch, and with your teeth, you manage to remove my thong, exposing my pussy. I shaved just for you, but left some hair above my slit. You spread my legs and dive in, I am very wet, your tongue snakes across my clit, opening my lips and sliding inside me. I moan appreciatively, pushing my pussy into your face. You are good, your tongue gets all the right spaces, and soon I am squirming and moaning, I am so excited that I am ready to come right away. Oooooohhhhh....
It's cold and dark. We are standing on the dock outside the restaurant, gazing across the marina, the wind is blowing. I have only a thin sweater on. My nipples are hard. You stand behind me, your arms around me, you are kissing my cheek, and your hands are roaming inside my sweater. Further up, your fingers reach my breasts, and come in contact with my perky nipples. I feel your hardness growing in your jeans, pressing into my bottom. There is another couple a few yards away, watching you fondle my large, firm tits. They smile and turn away, giving us privacy. I turn around and kiss you on the lips. "I want you, now" I whisper. A grin passes over your face. You have an idea. You have the combination to a friend's yacht. You grab a flashlight from the glove box and then we head down the ramp to the dock. You stop by a large sailboat, must be 50 feet, beautiful wood trim. We climb on board. There are no lights, the hatches are closed. I hold the flashlight, you undo the padlock. The hatch opens and we climb down the companionway. It's dark in the cabin. It is stuffy, smells a bit damp. You lead me through a door into the cabin. It has large galleon-style windows in the stern, and the moonlight is streaming in. You take me in your arms and kiss me. I'm impatient to fuck. I start unbuttoning your shirt, pulling it off, running my hands across your well defined, muscular torso. I undo your belt, and pull your jeans down. You are wearing boxers, and there is a tent pole sticking out, so I know you want it as much as I do. I slide my hand inside, feeling your hardness, fondling your balls. I pull down your shorts with my other hand, exposing your cock in the moonlight. I push you backwards onto the berth. It's high off the floor, ideal for me to take your cock in my mouth. So I do. You have a nice size cock, thick, circumcised. I slowly take it in my mouth, little by little till my lips are buried in your pubic hair. Slowly I withdraw, then once more envelop your hardness in my greedy mouth. You groan as my tongue dances along your shaft. My hand fondles your balls gently. Your hands gently run through my hair as I suck you, I know you want to fuck my face hard but you are such a gentleman, you restrain yourself. "Come up here", you ask. I hop up on the berth and kiss you. You grab my sweater and pull it over my head. I am braless, my nipples are hard, you caress my breasts, taking a nipple in your mouth. I am impatient and undo my jeans. You look admiringly at my naked body in the moonlight. You bury your face in my crotch, and with your teeth, you manage to remove my thong, exposing my pussy. I shaved just for you, but left some hair above my slit. You spread my legs and dive in, I am very wet, your tongue snakes across my clit, opening my lips and sliding inside me. I moan appreciatively, pushing my pussy into your face. You are good, your tongue gets all the right spaces, and soon I am squirming and moaning, I am so excited that I am ready to come right away. Oooooohhhhh....
Thursday, May 27, 2010
The Office
Your fingertips startled me when I felt them trail down my spine. I hadn't heard you come into the office. I had been leaning over my desk concentrating hard on my work at hand. Of course, I don't mind the intrusion. I especially never mind an intrusion from you. You murmur hello and kiss me gently on the cheek, your hand still rubbing up and down on my back. You are close behind me now and I can feel your hard cock through your pants pressing against my bottom. You tell me you were thinking about me. I move back into you slightly, grinding my hips as I do. You push back, pressing your cock harder into me. "What were you thinking?" I ask. "That you needed a break," you said. "Mmm, do I ever," I reply. I begin to turn around but you firmly but gently hold me where I am. "No," you say, "stay right here. Don't move. Don't lift your hands off the desk." I hearing jingling as you pull some change out of your pocket. You place a coin on the top of each hand. "These are to stay on your hands. Don't let them fall off." I groan with pleasure from the implication behind your words. "Ok," I whisper. Your hands move back to massaging my back. Then move down to my bottom, rubbing it, feeling it. I love your hands. You kneel down behind me and slowly push my skirt up. I can feel your hot breath on the back of my thighs. A shiver runs through me when I feel your hot wet tongue lick my thigh. Groaning, I shift my legs apart for you. My panties are now fully exposed and your hands are roaming over the soft silk. I feel your fingers move up my slit, my panties are already soaking wet. Your tongue licks across my hip, swirling gently down to the inside of my thighs. I feel a fingertip hook my panties and pull them off to one side. I tense with anticipation. I need you so much, gasping as I feel the intrusion of your tongue on my pussy. You are lapping at me, tasting me, tasting my wetness. I shudder and spread my legs wider. Your tongue moves it's way up to my clit and skids across it. Oh god, my legs shake. It's there now, You send electricity through me. Your fingers have moved to my pussy, slowly pushing inside me, rubbing, stroking. The feeling is overwhelming. I need to have all of you.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Overnight Fantasy
It has been quite some time since I have had sex. I am getting to that point here I am going to explode. Last night I had this daydream as I was lying in my bed trying to fall asleep. This is when my imagination goes wild sometimes…
Take off your clothes and get on all fours and kiss my feet.
Yes Daddy…I can hear the sound of his belt being taken from the loops of his jeans. Thick with the scent of fine leather.
WACK! It takes my breath away, just a bit. To grab my attention. WACK!
To your knees. I need to you suck my cock.
I do so. I love to suck Daddy’s cock. It is hard and so inviting. I love to lick it up and down then wrapping my mouth around the head. I can feel the belt on my back. Daddy moves it up around my neck and then down to my ass. It makes me feel so close to him. Daddy looks at me and tells me to stand up and then to get my spreader bar. I obey his every command and he ties my hands to each side of the bar.
Daddy then orders me to bend over. I am a bit nervous because I know what is going to happen next. Daddy snaps the belt. It is loud, my hands curl around the bar for support. WACK! WACK! WACK…Don’t cry out. WACK (harder now) WACK (ahhh, this hurts) I said don’t cry out. WACK! WACK ! WACK! I can feel my ass start to burn.
Then the belt is now in front of me. He makes me open my mouth and I bite it. I am holding on to it tight as Daddy forces his cock deep inside me. He is pounding me faster and harder. All the time, holding on to his belt like a bridle. My hands still tied to this bar. Daddy gives me one last smack with his hand. Then he releases himself and releases me.
Daddy was my cowboy for the night. Riding me and forcing me to obey his commands.
It was quite a fantasy in my head. I must really need to get laid. I am such a slut.
Take off your clothes and get on all fours and kiss my feet.
Yes Daddy…I can hear the sound of his belt being taken from the loops of his jeans. Thick with the scent of fine leather.
WACK! It takes my breath away, just a bit. To grab my attention. WACK!
To your knees. I need to you suck my cock.
I do so. I love to suck Daddy’s cock. It is hard and so inviting. I love to lick it up and down then wrapping my mouth around the head. I can feel the belt on my back. Daddy moves it up around my neck and then down to my ass. It makes me feel so close to him. Daddy looks at me and tells me to stand up and then to get my spreader bar. I obey his every command and he ties my hands to each side of the bar.
Daddy then orders me to bend over. I am a bit nervous because I know what is going to happen next. Daddy snaps the belt. It is loud, my hands curl around the bar for support. WACK! WACK! WACK…Don’t cry out. WACK (harder now) WACK (ahhh, this hurts) I said don’t cry out. WACK! WACK ! WACK! I can feel my ass start to burn.
Then the belt is now in front of me. He makes me open my mouth and I bite it. I am holding on to it tight as Daddy forces his cock deep inside me. He is pounding me faster and harder. All the time, holding on to his belt like a bridle. My hands still tied to this bar. Daddy gives me one last smack with his hand. Then he releases himself and releases me.
Daddy was my cowboy for the night. Riding me and forcing me to obey his commands.
It was quite a fantasy in my head. I must really need to get laid. I am such a slut.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I'm Honored
A couple of months ago I posted about a man who was gracious enough to get me really great seats at the Bon Jovi concert. He is one of the followers to my blog. Anyway, we have been friendly with each other for some time now and recently we have become closer. He does not live local but I enjoy his company over the phone and on the computer.
I wanted to give him the credit for being there for me during this difficult time. He has given me the attention I so desperately seek. The guidance of a Master that is leading me the way. The discipline I would be so lost with out.
I am honored that he is my mentor until I find a suitable Dom / Master. That is what Daddy’s do. They protect, advise and care for their baby girls.
I wanted to give him the credit for being there for me during this difficult time. He has given me the attention I so desperately seek. The guidance of a Master that is leading me the way. The discipline I would be so lost with out.
I am honored that he is my mentor until I find a suitable Dom / Master. That is what Daddy’s do. They protect, advise and care for their baby girls.
Monday, May 24, 2010
A follower's story with me in mind
Sometimes I get emails from my followers that really get my attention. This is one of them. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.
I awoke this morning to the sound of someone downstairs . . making a pot of coffee? Then I smiled . . streeeeeched and rolled out of bed . . started the shower and stepped into the rather large terrazzo tiled shower to cleanse my body for her. It was not long when I felt someone wrap there arms around me from behind . . her lips on my warm, wet skin as her hands explored my abdomen and then my nipples (mmm!). She pulls herself tight to my wet body from behind and lets her hands slide down to my pelvis and my now hardening cock. I lean forward in the shower . . with water cascading off my shoulders I feel her kneel behind me as her lips begin tracing a path down my lower back . . her hands now on my smooth, boyish lil bubble butt (she tells me she LUVS it). I feel her hand go between my thighs to my smooth balls as she caresses them firmly . . then grasps my now fully hard 8c cock. Mmmmmmm! Her tongue is licking the water from my ass . . dipping lower as she spreads my cheeks and flirts with my tight lil ass! OMG . . my lil pet truly knows how to get me soooooo HARD! She plays there for a moment, all the while caressing my balls and cock . . then turns me . . places a hand on my stomach and proceeds to engulf my cock to show the true purpose of her mission. She continues to massage my balls as she works over my thick cock . . water cascading down our bodies as she moves her hand from my balls to my cheeky butt and PULLS me down her throat . . now there are VERY few women that have ever shown true DT skills, and my lil pet is truly an expert at this. I watch in lust as she withdraws, then slowly but very deliberately takes my cock the full length down her throat! I can't help but wonder if when I cumm (and Ooooh I WILL!) will she pull me DEEP and have me cumm down her throat . . or back off, open her mouth and stroke me off to her porn style expertise (LUV this!). I want to hold off and enjoy this scenario but her skills soon have me panting with lust . . Daddy wanting to see the satisfaction on her face as she drains me completely! I keep telling myself there will be time later to breed this lil pet . . till my cumm is dripping down the inside of her thighs! Luv that thought . . OMG it begins to send me over the edge . . so I hollar out, "cumm on baby! suck Daddy's cock good . . tell me you want my cummm!" She begs for me to cumm and soon enough I let loose with a torrent of cummm . . grabbing her head and choking her by thrusting my cock deep into her throat . . mindless of whether it is good for her or not! It is for ME!
It suddenly becomes apparant that we are still in the shower under a warm stream of water as my lust subsides . . and I look down to see my lil pet licking my still engorged cock with a devilish smile . . "oh Daddy, you came soooo hard . . I could hardly swallow it all!" Magic words for this sweet lil pets playful Daddy . . don't you just LUV a dedicated lil pet?
I awoke this morning to the sound of someone downstairs . . making a pot of coffee? Then I smiled . . streeeeeched and rolled out of bed . . started the shower and stepped into the rather large terrazzo tiled shower to cleanse my body for her. It was not long when I felt someone wrap there arms around me from behind . . her lips on my warm, wet skin as her hands explored my abdomen and then my nipples (mmm!). She pulls herself tight to my wet body from behind and lets her hands slide down to my pelvis and my now hardening cock. I lean forward in the shower . . with water cascading off my shoulders I feel her kneel behind me as her lips begin tracing a path down my lower back . . her hands now on my smooth, boyish lil bubble butt (she tells me she LUVS it). I feel her hand go between my thighs to my smooth balls as she caresses them firmly . . then grasps my now fully hard 8c cock. Mmmmmmm! Her tongue is licking the water from my ass . . dipping lower as she spreads my cheeks and flirts with my tight lil ass! OMG . . my lil pet truly knows how to get me soooooo HARD! She plays there for a moment, all the while caressing my balls and cock . . then turns me . . places a hand on my stomach and proceeds to engulf my cock to show the true purpose of her mission. She continues to massage my balls as she works over my thick cock . . water cascading down our bodies as she moves her hand from my balls to my cheeky butt and PULLS me down her throat . . now there are VERY few women that have ever shown true DT skills, and my lil pet is truly an expert at this. I watch in lust as she withdraws, then slowly but very deliberately takes my cock the full length down her throat! I can't help but wonder if when I cumm (and Ooooh I WILL!) will she pull me DEEP and have me cumm down her throat . . or back off, open her mouth and stroke me off to her porn style expertise (LUV this!). I want to hold off and enjoy this scenario but her skills soon have me panting with lust . . Daddy wanting to see the satisfaction on her face as she drains me completely! I keep telling myself there will be time later to breed this lil pet . . till my cumm is dripping down the inside of her thighs! Luv that thought . . OMG it begins to send me over the edge . . so I hollar out, "cumm on baby! suck Daddy's cock good . . tell me you want my cummm!" She begs for me to cumm and soon enough I let loose with a torrent of cummm . . grabbing her head and choking her by thrusting my cock deep into her throat . . mindless of whether it is good for her or not! It is for ME!
It suddenly becomes apparant that we are still in the shower under a warm stream of water as my lust subsides . . and I look down to see my lil pet licking my still engorged cock with a devilish smile . . "oh Daddy, you came soooo hard . . I could hardly swallow it all!" Magic words for this sweet lil pets playful Daddy . . don't you just LUV a dedicated lil pet?
Friday, May 21, 2010
Sad news
Well I guess it is time for me to break the news to the world. Earlier in the week Master C and I broke up. Or at least we are taking time apart from each other for a while. I am missing him but this is for the better. We had been seeing each other for almost 7 months but sometimes it takes time apart to realize what you are missing.
So for now I am single so wish me the best of luck. I hope I don’t feel lost without a Master there to guide me but I have not given up on finding that perfect Dom.
I have a big weekend planned with the kids so I will be keeping myself busy. I hope I am not bringing you all down by telling you my sad news. Have a great Friday!!
So for now I am single so wish me the best of luck. I hope I don’t feel lost without a Master there to guide me but I have not given up on finding that perfect Dom.
I have a big weekend planned with the kids so I will be keeping myself busy. I hope I am not bringing you all down by telling you my sad news. Have a great Friday!!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
To My Dear Followers / Friends
How well can you get to know someone online? Can you believe everything they say? It is truly any different then meeting someone in a social setting, such as a bar or club?
For the past 8 months that I have been writing my blog I have met some wonderful people. (only one in person, Master C) I have become close with some. A couple seem to really know me. They know just how I feel and support my life and are there for me at any time. Then there are others who I like to talk to who really don’t have a clue about who I am but they are funny or have some sort of special feature about them.
I don’t have much to say about this subject except I wanted to give a shout out to all the people / followers / friends that I have met over the months. I think you are all great and love each of you.
With love
Carrie
For the past 8 months that I have been writing my blog I have met some wonderful people. (only one in person, Master C) I have become close with some. A couple seem to really know me. They know just how I feel and support my life and are there for me at any time. Then there are others who I like to talk to who really don’t have a clue about who I am but they are funny or have some sort of special feature about them.
I don’t have much to say about this subject except I wanted to give a shout out to all the people / followers / friends that I have met over the months. I think you are all great and love each of you.
With love
Carrie
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Just Thinking
What do submissive women look like? Despite the blogs I follow and the people I have spoken with online, I have never met one in person. I am the only submissive I know. Do submissive women look like the photos that I see? Because if men think that is what I look like they would be sadly mistaken. Now, I don’t think I am ugly nor do I think my body is that horrible but I do not look like one of those women in DV’s blog, Fantastic Ass Friday, for example.
I am just a plain girl, a family girl, a girl who loves to dress in comfortable clothing with a cool pair of sandals. I am quite, and have a caring demeanor about me. I love kids, animals, and a good book. I enjoy going to dinner or a movie. (OK, I enjoy doing anything outside sitting at home ) I live a pretty vanilla life but behind closed doors I love being my man’s submissive and sex slave. I want to be collard by him and be completely dominated. I want his love, his concern for me, his discipline.
I wonder just how many submissives are out there just like me and no one knows.
I am just a plain girl, a family girl, a girl who loves to dress in comfortable clothing with a cool pair of sandals. I am quite, and have a caring demeanor about me. I love kids, animals, and a good book. I enjoy going to dinner or a movie. (OK, I enjoy doing anything outside sitting at home ) I live a pretty vanilla life but behind closed doors I love being my man’s submissive and sex slave. I want to be collard by him and be completely dominated. I want his love, his concern for me, his discipline.
I wonder just how many submissives are out there just like me and no one knows.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Crazy Fantasies
Sometimes when you are home alone for long periods of time you end up fantasizing about living a life that is so unlike you. At least this is the way I see myself. Last night I was dreaming of taking a trip to Vegas. I had a layover in Dallas and when I caught my connection flight I sat next to a very handsome, older man. We talked a bit when he placed his hind on my leg. Feeling a little nervous about this, I continued to let him move his way up my leg and between my thighs. I was wearing a short skirt so before I knew it his fingers were caressing my clit. Wet and horny I placed my hand over his and pressed him into my drowning pussy. He fingered me for most of the flight… What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!!
Sitting at the bar quietly listening to some live jazz music. A woman approaches me. Makes small talk. She is tall and attractive. I have never been with a woman but I can see myself possibly being take by her. Then a gentleman walks up to the bar and stands right beside me. He bends down as whispers in my ear, choose who you want to be with... Impossible decisions!!
It’s early morning and he get up and starts the shower. With glass shower doors showing off his naked body, I can’t help myself but to join him. I love to wash his hair, soap him down, and after I make sure he is clean all over I show him my oral skills... Love shower oral sex!!
I know these fantasies are all over the place. I am not sure what it is that turns me on about them. The first 2 fantasies I would never see myself doing but I find myself getting turned on by near thought of experiencing these acts. Do you have an off the wall fantasy? I would love to hear about them.
Sitting at the bar quietly listening to some live jazz music. A woman approaches me. Makes small talk. She is tall and attractive. I have never been with a woman but I can see myself possibly being take by her. Then a gentleman walks up to the bar and stands right beside me. He bends down as whispers in my ear, choose who you want to be with... Impossible decisions!!
It’s early morning and he get up and starts the shower. With glass shower doors showing off his naked body, I can’t help myself but to join him. I love to wash his hair, soap him down, and after I make sure he is clean all over I show him my oral skills... Love shower oral sex!!
I know these fantasies are all over the place. I am not sure what it is that turns me on about them. The first 2 fantasies I would never see myself doing but I find myself getting turned on by near thought of experiencing these acts. Do you have an off the wall fantasy? I would love to hear about them.
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