OK...Thank you all for your birthday wishes today. Many of you have emailed me and I appreciate it very much. but I have to say I am a bit depressed about it. Not the first time I felt this way over a birthday. When I turned 30 I thought I was never going to get out of bed again. My mother threw a party for me and all I could think about was how old I was. Now fast forward 8 years and I hear my clock ticking loudly.
Not so much because it is my birthday but because I am 2 years away from turning 40 and I am still single. I suppose in my mind I feel like once I am 40 it is all over for me to find that guy who wants to settle down with me. I have been divorced now for almost 10 years. I look at all the other people in my family and they all found love in such a short amount of time.
My parents knew each other 1 month and they were ready to tie the knot. My brother met his British wife when he was visiting Japan. They moved in with each other after weeks of meeting. My grandparents met in a store and it was love at first site. Tonight my uncle is bring his new girlfriend to my dinner party. He says he is in love with her and he met her about a month ago...although is son wont be happy. His mother died about a year ago.
So as you can see I am still single, although I am seeing someone, but I don't see myself getting married any time soon. I would love to find a committed relationship where there is a lot of honesty and love. Am I asking for to much?
Anyway, my kids are excited about my birthday for some reason so I hope all is good tonight. Have a good weekend