Friday, October 29, 2010


 In my last post I mentioned if you go to my profile on Fetlife you will see the negative comments left by a certain someone. I guess when you block that person you erase all their you will only get half of the conversations left by me and Sir Vince who didn’t take a liking to what was being said

Once again...have a great weekend and dont eat to much candy. It was ment for the kids!!

Frist Online Argument

I do not argue with to many people. If I am upset with someone I usually keep it to myself or I might blog about it. But rarely do I tell off or disrespect that person even if I know I am right. I guess that is the sub in me.

Over the past couple of days there were comments made on my face page on Fetlife. (I wont get into the entire story but what was said to me was rude and uncalled for and to make matters worse this person emails me making my feelings toward him even angrier. I have since blocked him but I did leave his comments up there.

I can not believe this person feels that he should tell me what to do or make such insane comments to me. I know he is a Dom and has a sub of his own but does this give him the right to treat me like this just because I am a sub? I have never disrespected him until today when I responded back to him.

Please let me know what you think? You know me… I am appalled by this. If you are a member of this web site or simply want to check out what was said you can find me at nakedaytrader. I would be interested in your opinion.

Have a good weekend and Happy Halloween.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Just Chatting

I love when I get an email where someone makes me the center of their stories. If you tap "read more" at the bottom of this post you can read it. It is a real turn on for me to receive such a story.

I joined about a week ago. I didn’t think I would enjoy it but it has been fun and I have met some nice people. I had no idea there where so many kinksters that live near me. LOL I have never been to a fetish party and I was thinking I should go to one of the ones they advertise. I will need a kinky date so it will be all the more fun. So if you are a member come find me and become a friend. I am at nakedaytrader.

Before I go for today I just wanted to tell some of you how much I enjoy your adventures on your blogs. I do not always comment but I do read many of them. And I have to say that I miss Dom Tom’s and Baby Girl’s blogs and I can never seem to get enough of A Dauntless Journey. As far as Kara and Jessica goes…I am not lesbian but their stories of sex and love is so arousing to me. I love it…

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I Am Yours

Please...I know I promised I would let you fuck me like that but I’m not ready. Please….

"Don’t be such a little girl, TAKE IT!!” you growl – I feel your cock pushing harder against me. I hear the pop of the cap and a splash of oil spurting over my ass. You pushed the head of your cock hard against my asshole and suddenly it begins to slide inside. I groan with pain and pleasure - Ohhhhh god... no... please... but you ignore me, sliding deeper, your cock thrusting into my ass, filling me, inch by inch… it hurts, but it's sending me wild at the same time. My pussy is so wet and streaming down the insides of my thighs… I don't want this - it hurts - but fuck it feels so good...

Suddenly, you slam your cock all the way into me… I groan with intense pain and pleasure. There's nothing I can do to stop this now. You are holding me down hard, your cock deep inside my ass, and you begin to fuck me, taking me for your own pleasure, using me…I groan with each long hard thrust, so deep, so hard, penetrating me. You aren’t touching your breasts, my clit, but I’m so fucking wet, helpless as you take me. Your belly slapping against my ass with each hard thrust, groaning as you fuck me. Your cock throbbing and swelling inside my ass… I know I'm gonna cum, and cum hard… this is for your pleasure, not mine I know. You thrust harder and faster - you're on your way to your own orgasm.

“I'm gonna cum in your ass... tell me I am yours...TELL ME!!"

I am yours Master…

I groan intensely - I feel your cock ramming hard and deep - and I cry out, my orgasm pulsing through my body… so hard… so intense… it's all I can take - I scream with pleasure, I start shake into intense convulsions, my juices gushing out. I am cumming over and over again.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Take Me

Can you see how much I want you?

It takes all that I have to control myself around you.
Just the scent of you arouses me.
I want you.
I need you.
Fuck me.
Please fuck me.
Please don’t wait for me to ask.
If you want me, take me.
I always want you.
I want you all over me.
I want your hands, your lips, your body, on mine.
Fuck me.
Use me.
Take me for your own pleasure.

Look - I’m wet, now.
Can you see how wet I am?
You did that.
I want you to force yourself inside me.
I want you to fuck me and fuck me hard.
Kiss me.
Get astride me and kiss me greedily.
You know that’s what I want.
I need you.
I want to rub myself against you.
Let me feel my wet pussy slide against your hard cock.
Kiss me hard.
Show me what a man you are
Show me how much you want me.
Bite my neck.
Make me groan.
I love that.
Take me.
Fuck me.
ohh god please fuck me...

Friday, October 22, 2010

I know you can't wait to hear what I am doing this weekend...

Ok… busy weekend ahead. Tonight the kids want to go to local carnival. They love to spend my hard working money on (not so sure they are safe) rides, junk food and silly games. But don’t you love the smiles in their faces?

Tomorrow is busy diving kids to dance class and karate, have to go to the mall and at some point clean the house. Gee, my life sounds like a load of fun. Saturday night seems to be open at the moment and Sunday I need to get my car fixed again. It’s making a funny noise and every morning it freaks me out that I might not make it into work.

I have been looking into new cars and I think I found one I might be happy with. I want to go look at it but I am not sure I will be able to get a loan. I was told I need a co-signer. So if anyone wants to step up and be my hero…hint! hint!

Later Sunday I have to go to my father’s bday party. Love that man :-)

So, this is how my very simple yet busy life pans out for this weekend. TGIF…kiss

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

How Would You Punish or Reward?

Bending me over the desk, holding me down, and tug my panties all the way down. If I start to struggle, you'll spank me, punish me, teach me a lesson, remind me what a naughty girl I am.

That'll get you hard. If I’m a good girl, if I don't struggle, You'll fuck me then, like that, from behind, long and hard and deep, sliding your erect cock deep inside me, deep into my wet pussy, teasing me with my cock, thrusting hard inside me, taking me over the edge, making me cum over and over again, until I can't take any more…

If I’m a bad girl, I’ll be punished again. You will force me down onto my hands and knees in front of you, make me take your cock into your mouth, and you'll watch me as I suck you, holding me by my hair, treating me roughly, choking me, using me for your own pleasure, until you feel yourself about to cum, and then you'll cum in my mouth, urgently, selfishly, not caring about my pleasure, and once you've cum, you'll leave you there on the floor, your cum dripping from my mouth, my body trembling, leaving me wanting more.

Is this how you would punish or reward your sub?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Fantasy Ideas

A follower asked me…”What if I took you to a fetish party or swing club blindfolded? Have complete strangers touch you? How would you feel?”

I have never been one to want to be in a multi sex partner position at one time…but the thought of others touching me, unable to see them, their breath teasing every inch of my body as they come close is such a huge turn on for me. To not have that control of what happens. I can feel myself getting wet thinking about this venture. I think this is going to be my next fantasy.

Tell me what your fantasy is for yourself or your sub. Give me some new ideas. I’m loving it…

Monday, October 18, 2010

Do You Know How to Make Love to Me

I open my eyes and look up at you, there, above me. Your eyes smile at me. I see the love, lust and desire in them. My heart aches and I reach my hands up around your neck and pull you to me. Lips brush softly over lips. My tongue darts out and licks you. A soft groan escapes from deep inside you. So sensual. I pull you closer and kiss deeper. My tongue pushing past your lips, touching yours. I feel your body melt into mine. Suddenly your grab my head and kiss me deeper, lust overwhelming you. My body reacts instantly, I feel the warm tingle of arousal flush through my body. I want you. My hands roam down your back, pulling you tighter to me. I let them tuck under your shirt, feeling your warm skin. You're kissing me greedily now, hungrily as I kiss you back. Your breathing is quicker and I can feel your growing erection pressing hard against me. You want me too...

This is how I want to feel…How I want my man to feel about me. Do you remember when the last time you just made out and you are so turned on my the touching and emotions that you think your going to burst? When I think of the man I want to be with, I hope that it feels like this and feels like the other stories I post. Full of passion, lust, joy, and love. It is not really even about the sex for me (not all the time) But what leads up to the love making. So much depends on how I am treated (I am sure that is how it is for most women) I love the teasing, and the seduction that plays into my strong sexual emotions. Is it possible to find men like this anymore?  

Thursday, October 14, 2010

I Love DV's Blog

I was asked the other day…What is your idea of the perfect man? I told him, I really don’t know. That when I find it then I will know. I hope this statement is true. The only list of demands I have at the moment is he shouldn’t be married or attached, he must be honest with me, I am looking for that dominate feature, and most important treat me with respect and make an effort to understand the person I am.

I have this online friend (who most of you know) who writes the most incredible blog.  It is as if he writes it for me. He has this perfect understanding of how a sub should be treated and how a Dom should protect his sub. (although, he would be the first to tell you he doesn’t have all the answers)

I talk to a lot of new Doms or people who want to try out the D/s dynamic and I always refer them to his blog. I don’t know if they ever read it but my hope is that they will learn something from it and how important it is to understand their subs and treat them with respect and kindness. It is not about abuse or how to over dominate a person. It truly is about love and the intense reactions couples will receive from such a relationship.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I'm Thinking of You

I wet my fingers with my mouth, sliding them slowly in and out, thinking about you. My fingers slip out and trail down my body and I slip my them into my panties. I think about you, your body, the heat that forms between us. I need this, now.

The want and need between my thighs is too much. I need to touch myself. I can't wait. I need to cum thinking about you. I'm already so wet from just my thoughts of being with you.

My fingers caress over my soft skin, feeling the warmth emanating from it. My eyes close, it feels so good. My fingertips wander down a bit further, softly stroking over my wet cunt lips. I want to savor this. One finger slides slowly up my slit spreading my wetness around. My finger slides around my swollen clit and I take in a sharp breath. I tease myself thinking about you. God, I want to cum. Pleasure pulses through my body, down my legs, across my stomach, deep inside me.

My nipples are already hard as I think about your touch, your lips. I allow my fingertips to swirl over them. I take one in my hold and roll it between my fingers. A gasp escapes from my lips and I feel the sensations shoot through me. I want you to do that to me, bite my nipples, pinch them hard, suck on them and make me writhe under you.

My clit throbs beneath my touch. Around and around, soft slow circles, teasing my body and making me gasp for air. I can feel my hips moving to meet my fingers. The build-up is slow, mesmerizing. I breathe softly. I can feel the pleasure rising, slowly, making the ache stronger.

I pinch my nipples again and gasp. I need this. I pull on my nipple feeling the pain and pleasure flow through me. I want to feel you so much. I need to feel you inside me, filling me, thrusting hard and deep. I slowly reach over to the side of the bed and pick up my vibe. I suck the tip of it into my mouth, swirling my tongue around it, getting it wet, ready for me. I turn it on low and trail it down over my nipples, circling around them. My clit pulses hard and I push my hips up, tensing my muscles.

My thighs fall open, wanting so much to feel you. I trail the vibe down over my stomach to my pussy. The moment it touches my clit I push my fingers inside me. I feel the vibration deep inside. My pussy squeezes around my fingers as I thrust them inside. I gasp. I move the vibe over my clit, stroking slowly, moving in small circles, not wanting to cum yet. My fingers caress my pussy, pushing deep, finding that spot., curling my fingers up, rubbing and stroking.

I push the vibe in, slowly, achingly, feeling my body clench around it. I groan softly. I start to stroke it slowly. My fingers find the same rhythm and I stroke my clit, gently, teasingly as I begin to fuck myself.

I want it deeper, harder. I push the vibe deeper, increasing my pleasure, needing it more now. I push it inside me over and over. My fingers move faster around my clit. I can feel it building. The warmth grows and spreads from deep inside me. I want to cum. I need to cum.

I fuck myself faster, harder, deeper. I need to cum. I need to cum for you. Another moan escapes my lips. The vibe slides in and out, my fingers move around and around my clit. The heat is rising in me, pulsing through me. My fingers circle, trying to keep it as long as possible, that feeling, that divine sensation. I need to cum. I want it so much. I want to feel it. I thrust the vibe in hard once, twice, three times and it pushes me over the edge. My back arches, my mouth opens slightly as body explodes with the sensation. Warmth floods over me as I come hard, squeezing hotly around the vibe, cumming hard, fast, and breathless.

I need you to come over…Make me cum. I need for you to come to me and build this warmth I have for you. I’m waiting...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Mini Vacation

I love to see my kids happy and excited…So, 5:45am I wake them up, load the car, hop in with a donut in hand and 1 ½ hours later we were stuck in the middle of nowhere for the next 7 hours. My car broke down. Luckily, I was in the turning lane of the service plaza when all the alarms and lights went off in the car. After an hour of trying to find someone at the plaza to help, a tow tuck guy pulled up.…I had lost my belt. All he could do was tow me and if he drove me 41 miles to the nearest exit the cost would be around $300, he gave me the number to a friend of his who would come out to me and fix the belt. So this super nice mechanic drove 45 miles to install the belt only to find out the water pump was destroyed. So he had to drive back 45 miles to get the part…anyway, 7 hours later the car was fixed…I was $400 in the hole, and the poor kids were upset about not being able to go to SeaWorld.

So I decided that I would drive to Orlando and spend an extra day. The kids were so excited and my 5 year old son was in amazement the entire time. We got to see the new baby killer whale that had only been born 12 hours earlier. They got to trick or treat around the park and had a blast at the water park.

I think I had to pay an addional $650 (a lot of money to me) on this trip but to see my kids, especially my little one, have such a great time was worth every moment of heartache. I am already planning my next trip to the mountains this summer.

FYI… John, my ex had surgery last night to remove the tumor that has been growing…He did well and had stayed with me last night so I can help him out. Hopefully after the radiation treatment and this surgery will be the end of all this. Unfortunately, my mind has not been in an erotic mood lately. I will try to pull something out if my imagination tonight.

Friday, October 8, 2010

The Weekend

ITS FRIIIIIIDAY!!! This weekend should be a fun one for me. I am taking the kids to SeaWorld & Aquatica in Orlando. They are so excited. They do a Halloween event for smaller children and my son is so excited to be dressed as Harry Potter and get to trick or treat around the park.

We always have a lot of fun at the theme parks but it always makes me wish I had someone to share my memories with. Remember the post where I said I have not been on vacation with a man in more then 10 years? Well, here is another one. Lol…. I will just keep count and someday hopefully really laugh about my unlucky situation.

But I am thankful for being able to bring the kids to this special place. I love watching them discover new things, especially my 5 year old son. They always look so happy and that just thrills me. I love them so much and would give them the world if I could.

So any donations to their schooling or dance my daughter’s dance classes would be appreciated. LOL…just kidding :-)

You all have a wonder weekend yourself. Kisses

Thursday, October 7, 2010

How Can I Please You?

What do you want from me today? I can see that you're already erect. Were you thinking of me? Perhaps it was the idea of us fucking. Or was it watching me with another girl? Maybe it was you with the other girl. Were you fucking her or were you down between her thighs licking her wet cunt? Your cock is so hard and swollen. I think maybe it was the combination of all of them.

What do you want? You could have it a couple of ways. Perhaps you'd like my lips around your cock first. Would you like that? To have my soft breasts pressed against your thighs as my hand slowly strokes your cock. To feel my warm breath against your cock as I admire you. To feel my warm, wet tongue caress around the head of your cock as my hair gently brushes over your stomach and balls. Would you like that? Would you like to feel my mouth slowly engulf you. Feel the heat of my lips sliding down the length of your cock while my hand strokes you? Maybe you'd like my other hand to fondle your balls. Maybe roll them in my hand and gently tug and squeeze them. Would that make you throb in my mouth? What if I swirled my tongue around you while you were deep in my mouth? Would you like that? Maybe suck hard on you to draw out your pre-cum so I could taste it. Does that make you groan? Does that make you hard?

That's what I'd want. To make you hard. To make you groan my name. To make you weave your fingers through my hair as I sucked your cock. But would that be enough for you? Would you want to cum then? Would you want to cum in my mouth or on my face. Or would you rather I fucked you first and make you cum inside me instead?

Do you want to fuck me? Do you want to slide your hard, hot cock inside my dripping pussy? Would that make you want me more? Would that get you off? Would you want me to slide off my panties and toss them to the floor so you could see my naked pussy? I know you'd like that. I know you want to be inside me, to fuck me.

How would you want me? Should I tease you first and slide over you? Maybe I should rub my wet pussy against your cock and coat you with my juices first. You'd feel how wet I was for you. Would you be able to hold back? Or would need me to slide my dripping pussy down over your cock and take you like that. I could fuck you like that, my thighs straddled over you, riding you, taking your hands into mine and pushing them over your head. I could fuck you hard and force you to thrust your hips up into me. Would you want to cum like that?

Or would you rather fuck me from behind?

Would you like that? To push me to my knees and fuck me from behind? Would you fuck my pussy or would you fuck my ass? Maybe you'd fuck both. First, my pussy to wet your cock so that you could fuck my ass. Would you want that? To feel your hard pulsing cock push slowly into my tight ass? To feel the hot flesh parting around your cock, so tight, squeezing around you. Would you want to feel that? Would you want to grab onto my hips and thrust your cock deep inside my tight hole? Would you lean over and kiss me or would you stay and thrust hard? Would you fuck me hard enough to feel your balls slapping against my pussy?

Could you hold out? Or would you have to cum? Would you fuck me long and hard or do you need the release now?

What is it that you want?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Tell Me...

I've been fantasizing about you. I've been needing you. I'm already wet for you. My hand has slinked into my panties and my fingers are caressing my clit. I want you. Let me remove my clothes. I don't need them today. Look at me. Do you like what you see? I want you to want me as well. Tell me. I want to hear it from you. Tell me how you want me, what you want to do to me. What you want me to do to you. I want to know. I want to be yours. I want to be your submissive slut. To obey you, to worship you, to caress every part of your body and your mind. Perhaps, you just want to flip me onto my belly and fuck me from behind. I know how much you want this. I want it too. Tell me... I need to know…Tell me

Monday, October 4, 2010

My Life Updates

Lots going on this past weekend. A lot of you have asked me about John my ex and how he is doing. This weekend he got the news that he has cancer in his foot that will require surgery and radiation treatments. That starts this week. This funny thing is I have been going out of my way to help him and try not to bug him for his child support knowing he has been out of work and will be out of work for some time…He tells me his girlfriend can’t help him because she doesn’t be around sick people. This is the same person he writes to on Facebook telling her she is the best thing to happen to him… For 30 minutes this morning he was arguing with me about how I took his son’s guitar to be fixed when he said he would fix it (that was 6 months ago) Am I just too nice of a person or a sucker?

I got an email this weekend from one of my bosses who says he is leaving the company and I better look for another job before he leaves. I know I have asked before but if there is anyone out there who is willing to give me a shot at a real job NSA…That would be wonderful.

Now I have a movie review for you… Case 39. Very suspenseful, I liked it a great deal. All I have got to say is “Don’t kids freak you out?” Like in Six Since?… They are scary. LOL

New favorite reality TV show… Sister Wives. Things are heating up with the husband bringing home a 4th wife. The other wives are jealous. They are making comments and are crying…kids running around all over the place. It’s great.

Now I am sure all of you want an update on The Deadliest Catch…King Crab season starts in a couple of weeks and according to the news the Hillstands are not retuning to the show due to they are being sued by Discovery Channel for $3million for not showing up for shooting of their spin off reality show. Captain Sig isn’t returning out of respect of the Hillstrand boys. We know from last season that Captain Phil died so that only leaves Capt. Keith. This show will surly be missed by millions of fans from all over the world. I sure hope they can work something out.

Well this is my life the past few days. I sound so vanilla. LOL

Friday, October 1, 2010


Dear Friends,

Well… it has been one year ago today that I started on this incredible journey into D/s and when I started this blog. It has been a lot of fun and I have learned so much. Like anything else worth writing about there have been ups and downs along the way. My relationships with Master C and Sir didn’t turn out like I wanted but I give them great thanks for taking me under their wings and letting me explore my desires and fantasies along with showing me discipline, courage and respect for the lifestyle.

I have met so many wonderful people though this blog and others that I read, men and women. I would like to thank Rob for the concert tickets and for all the advice and love that he has shown me, Dave for the apple trees he planted in my honor, DV for your insightfulness, Tom for the fun assignment, Bob for being a friend, Master C for the love that I felt, Sir for the kinky fun, John for being such a good friend and concert / movie buddy, Mike for your imagination, Rob in N. Florida for your wild stories, and to Baby Girl who let me read about her love for Daddy, Heather for her incredible journey into D/s, and Kara and Jessica who’s love for each other sound perfect, and to Fish who is a lot of fun and who I have enjoyed meeting. I would also like to thank Vicki and Master J…I know feelings have been hurt and I’m sorry for not being able to work those issues out with you but hope in time things will change.

I know I have left so many people out but I thank everyone who has stopped by my blog just to see what I am up to and enjoy reading my fantasies. All of you and the freedom of writing have truly changed my life and I have cherished every moment.

Love you all,