Monday, January 31, 2011

A Master Question

This is a question to all you Doms out there... Have you ever taken a beating from a cane, whip, other instrument in order to see what it feels like to the subs that take it from you? Do you feel it is important to know how much control you hold in your hands?

Do you want the whole experience of a session from the preparation to the after care? Would it make you appreciate her more to know how it feels to be on her side?

I do not think I have it in me to try and spank or dominate my Dom in any way. And much as I would sometimes love to see how much of a lashing my Master can take, I would not personally be able to do it.

I not sure how one would go about in sharing this experience. I am sure having your sub do this to you would not be ideal (it would be rather confusing if you ask me) But if, as a Dom where to have a role reversal session...would that make you a better Master to your slave / submissive girl?

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Question For You

I love to know about the people. Especially the ones that read my blog. I would like to set up a few questions, you can respond here or my email but please take the time to answer. If it works out I will have new questions next week. It seems everyone's blog has something they like to do on a weekly basis so maybe this will be mine. we go

1. Tell me a little about you. How you go into D/s or what makes you curious about the lifestyle?

2. Do you have a blog of your own? If I do not already have it listed on the right please send me your link.

3. Can you remember how you found my blog? And how long have you been following?

Ok...that's it for now. Its up to you. Have a great day

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

A Story I Want To Tell

I know some of my posts arn't always about sex. I use my blog at time to shout out my feelings when I don't think anyone else will listen. Over the weekend I was very busy and as most of you know I have been having pain in my neck for over a week. So I decided to take a pain reliever which turn out I was highly allergic to. Anyway as it turned out (I went to the doctor last night) I got a bad lymph note infection due to a misquote or ant bite...that was the cause of my pain, so the doctor gave me some strong antiboics and steroids and amazingly I feel a lot better today...He and about 10 others told me I should have gone to the doctor a week ago. So I know...You told me so. LOL
Anyway as I was sitting at home thinking about how my health is falling apart I kept remembering about a woman that I met while ago working at the hospital ER. This was about 12 years ago and although I thought of her many times it never seems too get easier to get over the guilt I had for her. I know it wasn't my fault but telling my head that has been another story.

A woman walks into the ER, she was 22 years old, obese, had a baby boy 4 days earlier, and came to the ER saying she had breast pain and shortness of breathe on and off all day. The nurses looked at her and sent her to an area called Quick Care. My best friend at the time was the nurse practitioner who looked at her and sent her home saying she had a cold like symptoms. The woman (a name I cant not tell you here, but will never forget) felt better and left. I happened to be walking though the waiting room when a older woman stopped me and told me there was a woman on the toilet who could not get up because he cant breathe and was in a lot of pain. I was working as a patient liaison with a little bit of a medical background, so I went in to see how I can help. The woman told me that she saw Kathy in Quick Care and that she had had a bad cold. I told her I would look into for her and would be right back.

I went to Kathy and she said (in not such a nice way) that the woman was obese, and when you have a cold and you are walking around you can feel out of breathe, and because she was breast feeling her baby her breast hurt. OK enough said I went to the bath room, this woman was very nice and I told her (in a much nicer way) what Kathy said but if she feels this bad I will get her back to the main ER now and have her sseen by a doctor. The woman said Thank you to me and that she was feeling a lot better and will go home to rest. So that is what she did. the time was 5:35pm.

I went home that night about 11:00... but I made sure I documented every thing that happen but I left the report in my desk with the intention of putting it in the chart when I got back to work. I came back to work at 11:00 am with people whispering and gossiping how this woman came into the ER last night at 12:30 dead and how she was seen by Kathy in Quick Care.

I almost dropped to the floor. I went to my desk and got my notes and saw the nursing supervisor, and told her what happen. I didn't know at the time that Kathy never mentioned I came and told her about what happen in the bathroom. She made up a story to save her ass. The woman died of a pulmonary embolism ( a blood clot to the lungs) This can happen shortly after a serious injury, surgery or birth of a child. All the syptoms that I saw were classic. I didn't have enough medical background to know this but I have always felt I should have fought harder for her. She now has a 12 year old son that grew up with out a mother.

This case went to court and I spent 2 years having to tell my story. My best friend was fired from the hospital and lost her medical license and the nurse was suspended for a while. I was commended for trying to help this poor woman and for good note taking. I have always felt a lot of guilt... I sometimes wonder if it was worth it. The issue is the woman is still dead and I no longer have Kathy as a friend. I think she was a great practitioner who got lazy for a moment.

I am not sure why I share this with all of your today but sometimes I feel like I have to tell someone. Thank you friends.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Boy I'm Hot

I am not sure if I should bring this up as it is sort of embarrassing but I think it is some what of a public service announcement. Every once in a while I come up with a way to pleasure myself completely by accident. Like when I am sitting at my desk and I tend to sit on my day I started to rub my clit against it and I get myself off. Or like using the shower head to pulsate my clit. God, I love that.

So the other day the a/c unit in my house broke. So I put on some very light pjs with no panties on. And I was sitting next to my fan...then for some reason the breeze from my fan travels up my pant leg. OMG! the feeling was so great. Not enough to make me cum but it felt so incredibly good. Sort of like right have you are given oral and your partner blows on you. It is just a cool feeling when your feeling hot.

I was told yesterday that I might be some sort of sex attack . That I have a high intense imagination when it comes to sex. That I seem to always be in some state of hornyness. I disagreed with this person's assessment but now after masturbating to a fan, I think he might be right...LOL

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Can You Feel Me

Have you ever thought of someone when your feeling lonely? That it had been so long since you were together. Do you miss the smell of them on your skin? Miss the smell of sex in the room. The musky scent of sweat, lust and greed. I love that scent. It's unmistakable when you walk into a room where two people have had sex. It can linger for hours, days even. The smell can envelop you and welcome you. And it can make you want more. Much more.

I'm feeling insatiable today. I'm horny. I want sex. I'm craving it. I want to be ravished. I want to be desired. Do you feel it? My skin is hot to the touch. My body wants your touch. It wants to feel your hands crawling up and down all over me. I don't want it sweet and gentle. I want it urgent and rough. I want to be fucked. I need you to fuck me. Will you? Will you give me what I need? Will you fuck me the way I want?

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I'm Just Saying

Why is it that when men (and maybe it happens with women) that when they find out your seeing someone they immediately want to tell you off. I got an email from someone who I exchanged short emails with for a while now, saying I lead him on. I really don't think that is the case and if I did I'm sorry.

Anyway, things might change in the future but if you ask me...if this is your reaction to me, to insult and belittle me, then you would not be the type of person I would want to go out with.

So I would like to thank the rest of you who have remained sweet to me. Who support me in good times and in bad. Who will listen and give sound advice when I need it. You know who you are....Thank you

Monday, January 17, 2011

Stuff and a joke

This weekend was a busy one for me. Running errands and helping my brother with his catering business. But this was good practice because starting next weekend dance competition season begins. This is much of an event for parents as it is for their kids. We must be crazy but when I look at my daughter on stage...she is stunning. She has such a passion to be out there and showing others how much she enjoys dance. She is truly beautiful inside and out.

Next Sunday is their annual Showcase and one of the biggest fundraisers all year for the dance team. This year I am heading it up. So if any of you would like to send a little something to Illusion Dance it would be appreciated.

Below, is a joke that was sent to me. I just had to pass it on to you all. Have a wonderful week ahead. Kisses

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> >LOL...Just thought this was to funny not to pass it along. Thanks Dave


Thursday, January 13, 2011

I Needed Him

I know most of you have been worrying about me and my sex life or that lack of, so I am going to write about one of my first episodes with my new gentleman. I am not sure I will write about my whole evening but here is part 1...

My eyes flicked at him. I wasn't surprised to see how much lust was visible. I could tell by his voice when he said my name in my ear. It was strong and dangerous. My hand reached behind me and I drew him closer. I needed to feel him. I needed to feel all of him.

Coming closer, he reached his hands around me, bringing them up along my sides. Sighing softly, I leaned back into him. My hands pulled against his hips, bringing his already erect naked cock hard against my ass. His lips found my neck, softly kissing it as he breathed heavily against it. Our bodies began to move. We swayed together as his hands began to explore. Little effort was made stripping my blouse and bra free. His hands found my breasts, firm and full at his touch. I melted into him. My hands reached behind me, rubbing his cock. I could feel his pulse as my hands worked over him. His breathing became heavier and our movements more frantic.

It was a need now, a need to fuck.

His hands pinched my nipples hard, rolling them between his fingers as I gasped. He let go of one breast and moved his hand down across my belly. Unzipped my skirt, his hand quickly slid down inside my panties and found my aching clit. My knees buckled a little as his fingers rubbed against me. Our breathing turned more rapid as we writhed together, feeling the need growing.

I need to fuck... He thrust his hips deep into my awaiting pussy. I cried out as I felt him fill me and start to fuck me. I had been needing this. I rocked my ass up against him, trying to help him reach even deeper. His body crushed mine as his cock pounded hard into my dripping pussy. My pussy pulsed hard around him, needing him, wanting him harder, faster, deeper. My body tensed as I felt my orgasm growing. I couldn't hold it back. It was too urgent of a need, to fuck and be fucked. I felt my body tense, my insides swelling around his hard cock. My body starts to shake as I let go of all that passion built up inside me...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011


I am not usually a dreamer and if I do dream I don't remember them. So maybe because I wasn't feeling well last night and just super tired, I started to dream. Boy, were they crazy. If anyone knows how to analyze or has an idea what my dream could be about...I would love to know.

All night long I was dreaming of being chased. I was in a car with a man and I was driving. We were driving through the country side with mountains in the back ground and it was rainy (I mention this because I live in flat, sunny, South Florida) There were several times where my car lost control. I am not sure who was chasing me or the person I was in the car with. At some point we get out of the car and run into this public bathroom, in the middle of nowhere. We hop into the stall where this guy started stripping me and kissing me. He was looking for something but then got all sexual. So I started to take his clothes off as well...(and this is the funny part) he goes to fuck me and this voice says "watch out for his penis" So I look down and his cock falls off. I was shocked.... Then of course my alarm goes off.

I know that dreams are supposed to have these deep down meanings so what do you think? I would love to know what you see in this dream.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


Hello everybody... I am feeling a bit under the weather today so there won't be any sexy blog posting today. I just can't keep my mind focused on such things.

I did want to mention an email I got this morning on Fetlife. It was quite rude and I hope this person realizes that he has no idea what he is saying. I will spear you his name, at least for now. He went on to say in his email that I don't share my life with him. That I control everything that I say online and he doesn't understand why others are so into me. How can I say I am a sub....

Let me tell you Sir... Of course I control everything I say online. It is my wall, blog, and website. I am nice to everyone I meet and I don't judge anyone. I simply didn't feel a connection with you therefore, I don't have much to say about my private life to you. Secondly, just because I am a sub doesn't mean I am a sub to everyone.

I hope this post clears things up for you. I would like you to apologize for your tone but if not that is ok because you will not get any other response from me.

To everyone else out there today...please stay warm and cozy and chat with you later

Monday, January 10, 2011

Is Anyone Out There

This morning I woke up in a good mood. A horny mood...the reason for my earlier blog post. But by noon my boss came in and is multiple personalities and was giving me a hard time. So much that he has me here shaking. I cant take it here any longer, so I am asking.... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you know anyone who has a job that pays pretty well put in a good work for me or let me know and I can try and get in touch with them. Anyway, that is all I have to say

Have a great day

Thinking of You

I often wonder what you look like, sitting there at your computer, reading my blog.

Do you read me at work? That intrigues me - the idea that you'd read an explicit sex blog while at work, your excitement at reading my words presumably intensified by the wickedness of it all, of dipping into my blog when there's a chance of being discovered, of being caught reading, sexually aroused, deliciously erect. Maybe you fantasize about what might happen if someone caught you . Do you masturbate right there at your desk? Maybe you read enough to arouse you, and then find somewhere relatively private where you can bring yourself to a orgasm. Is that what you do? I'd love to know.

Maybe you have a laptop - do you read my blog in bed? Do you take me to bed with you? Do you imagine I'm there in bed with you, caressing you, touching you, stroking you, fucking you? Do you lay down when you're reading? Do you lay back and masturbate as you read my words, finding just what you need to take you there, cuming gorgeously. Do you think about me, thinking about your cock deep inside me, wanting to cum deep and hard in my pussy, filling me up, spurting all your cum again and again inside me. I wonder about these things - it turns me on deliciously to imagine you, thinking about you reading, thinking about how aroused you are.

Maybe, like me, you have a computer at your desk at home. Are you alone when you read my blog? Or do you have a partner, maybe you read secretly when she's out, or in bed, bringing yourself as quietly as you can to an intense orgasm, hoping you won't be discovered? Or maybe you live alone, or have your own private room, and can lazily explore the archives as long as you like, getting yourself hotter and hotter, until you cum, hard, any way you want to. Is that what you do? Are you naked at your computer .

I'd love to discover you like that. I'd love to find you there, wanting me, needing me, masturbating gorgeously, reading my words, touching yourself. I'd want to watch you play, to watch you cum... loving how good you look, loving how my words turn you on.

I'd love to bend over your sofa right now... maybe tying my wrists behind my back, my skirt up around my waist, and you'd thrust your cock deep inside me from behind, your cock sliding all the way into my dripping wet pussy. You'd be so turned on from reading my words, from being discovered masturbating - maybe you'd want it rough - I know you like to think about that sometimes.

I love that...I love know how I turn you on. Please let me know how your feeling when you read my words. i need to know as it helps me bring myself to pleasure.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

SEX...There's an App for That

As soon as the concept of apps was introduced, sexy apps entered the arena. There are game apps and advice apps.

There are XXX-rated apps and R-rated apps. There are apps designed to be silly sexy and apps designed to be serious sexy. But, whatever you’re into, there’s bound to be sexy app that will help put a charge in your sex life.

Some of them are free, and those that do have a price tag generally cost less than $5, making it relatively easy to experiment with a few until you find one that suits you. I’ve gathered nine sexy apps so you can get a taste of what’s out there.

1. Body Heat by OhMiBod

It’s the very first app of its kind designed to remotely control vibrators, and it’s being released Jan. 6 at CES in Las Vegas. is the first to get the scoop. You can turn your iPad, iPod, or iTouch into a remote for a variety of vibrators from OhMiBod. It lets users change the intensity and the pattern of the vibration. You just touch the screen to speed things up, slow things down or change things around. Toys that your partner controls, toys your music controls, and now toys that your mobile phone or “tablet” controls. Who would have thought!

2. Sexy Slang’s Naughty & Nice Charades

Think of it as charades for after the kids go to bed. It’s just like the charades you know and love, except sexy slang is what you’ll be acting out and you’ll be racing an opposing team to get the right answer. Think “Booty Call” and “Smoking Hot.” Meant to be played with at least two couples, it’s not your typical ice breaker. But you can be sure the ice will be completely melted after you play. Plus, even though it’s not for kids, there’s no X rating. But what it’s lacking in curse words and nudity it makes up for in sexual innuendo.


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Think of it as virtual sex ed -- for grown-ups. This app has descriptions of a variety of different positions, tips for reaching orgasm, info about self-play, foreplay and after-play, advice for how to please a woman, and even info about contraceptives and STDs. It also has what it calls “a private black book” so you can keep track of your sexual partners. It’s like an all-in-one guide on the go.

4. Cosmo’s Sex Position of the Day

If you’re looking to add new positions to your roundup, this app might be just what you need as we herald in this New Year. It includes positions like the Figure Eight and G-Spot Jiggy, designed to heighten female pleasure, as well as positions like Romp With a View, which is designed more with the man in mind. The app also features the Carnal Challenge Rating (“the more flames, the higher the difficulty”), step-by-step guide instructions, info on why you’ll love certain positions, and illustration so users will know what the position should look like.

5. Bedometer

They call this the “sexercise” app. As the name implies, this app allows you to calculate how many calories you’ve burned from having sex. It has both single and “multiplayer” options, and the creators explain that it uses the iPhone’s “accelerometer to detect the intensity of your ‘workout’.” The Bedometer gives users a result that can even be posted on Facebook if you’re so inclined. Sure sounds a lot more fun than the treadmill at the gym . . .

6. Sexy Texts

If the written word is not your forte but you want to sext your partner, this app is designed to help. The app gives users hundreds of lines of erotic texts in a variety of categories from playful to romantic to sexy. All you do is cut and paste a line or series of lines and send it/them off to your partner. They say the “sexy” category is only for advanced sexters and advises users to work up to it. Hhhmmm… Would love to know when you qualify as experienced…

7. Sexy Game

This app is a lot like those naughty dice games. It gives you an action and a body part and then sets you loose on your partner (or partners, as it has a multiple players option). The game can be password protected. And the game plays can be randomized or alternated. Body parts are by gender but it also can be set for same sex play (by request, the game creator notes). You can also “lock” the spinner by actions, body part, or duration. In other words, it can create play as random – or not so random – as you like!

8. The Sexulator

The Sexulator allows you to track your sexual activity. The premise is that if you see your “stats,” you are more apt to want to improve them, causing you and your partner to get down to it more often. It teases a “sex status level” system that is based on your activity. But it won’t reveal the levels until you get there. It also allows you to rank your experiences. If you and your partner disagree about how much sex you do actually have, this app can put an end to those fights. And if you’re the kind of person who likes to compare notes, this app allows you to see how you and your friends stack up.

9. My Vibe

This app turns your iPhone into a vibrator. No, seriously, it turns your iPhone into a vibrator for use, they say,

• At your desk

• On your couch

• On the kitchen table

• In the car when you’re stuck in traffic

• At the movies

• When your kids are watching TV –– and not you

• Or anywhere else you want a little massage with some targeted vibrating stimulation

It has 100 vibration speeds and patterns, a memory on/off switch (to keep track of your favorite setting), and the vibrating capability can be used even when the phone is off in order to conserve battery power.


His fingers splayed out across my breast while his body began to take what it needed from me. I felt his cock grow hard against my flesh. His lips moved down further, his tongue swirling over my skin. My own hands encouraged him, telling him to take all of me. His mouth sucked my nipples and I arched up to him. My body throbbed with a desire long forgotten.

His hands slid over my belly and down between my thighs which parted eagerly for a chance to be fulfilled. His fingers began a slow dance, teasing my senses. My hips pushed up to him with want. I didn't need the waltz, he didn't mean it anyway. He could save the seduction for someone else. I pushed his head down to ask him for more. I wanted the pleasure I knew he would give.

His lips told me the words I wanted to hear. I didn't care that he didn't mean them. I didn't care that I was being used. I needed to feel a touch, a hint of desire.

His mouth lingered on my neck, alternating between kisses and talk of his want. He caressed my body with his, his chest against mine, his thigh pressed between mine. The heat poured from him making it all that easier to surrender. I knew he felt me succumb to him and I felt his smile against my skin.

His mouth found me and gave me what I desired. His lips and tongue quickly brought me the feeling I so long missed. I gave myself over to the sensations. My body responded in kind and allowed me the pleasure I sought. I gave it all to him and he took it.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Tid Bits

Happy 2011... Hope you all had a fun and safe weekend. Mine was good. Went to a little New Years Eve party. I think my daughter found her first boyfriend there. His name is Zack and they are both 13. He seems sweet and wicked (almost scary) smart. They go to different schools and don't live real close to each other...I bring this up because I will have some control on what is going on with them. LOL

I went to the movie over the weekend. I saw Black Swan. And I can believe this was nominated for Best Picture this year. It is a story you don't really expect going into it. I am sure most think it is a movie about a ballet dancer but there is something deeper going on. I dont want to give away the plot but it is truly a sexual, who's in on it, type thriller. I loved this is dark and sexy. I walked out of there feeling so horny. (Kara and Jesse, I know you will like it)

Besides from that I have a little news from the home front. I have been keeping it quite for a little time now. But I have been seeing someone. He is nice and respectful. He has been following my blog for a long time now and I hope he is everything that I think he is. I am not sure what name I am going to call him here. (any suggestions are welcome) So just thought I would share that information with all of you.

Love you all...