Monday, November 30, 2009

Thought For the Day: Bound Angel For You

Monday Morning

Its Monday morning and hope all of you had a great weekend. Mine was uneventful. Which in hindsight is probably a good thing. Master C has been in LA for almost a week and I miss him dearly. He made a comment over the weekend on the blog just below. I am curious as to what you all think of it. So please feel free to comment on here or email me.

So like I said I did not do much this weekend. NO SEX, NO MASTERBATION, NO COMPANIONSHIP. I am going out of mind.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Thought For the Day : To Sir With Love

I'm thankful for all that you have taught me,Sir.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Childhood Spanking Memories....

As I child my brother, sister and I would always be spanked if we did something wrong. My father would always do the punishing. We would be sent to our rooms where we would wait for our punishment. My father would come in and not say a word except to bend over (always over our beds) and he would then continue to spank us with the wooden spoon. I can’t tell you how many of those spoons he would break over our butts. The beating always seemed to take forever although my guess now is that it was only minutes. I don’t know about my siblings (because we were always spanked in private) but the spanking always ended in tears for me. For years I hated my father for (what I thought at the time as abuse) for the spankings. I realize now it was not abuse, it was just how kids were brought up at the time.

It is funny how now after all these years spankings are the source of my excitement. Of course when I am being punished for something by Master C all those fears come back for a brief moment. Now Master C has not punished me harshly yet but I am sure my time is coming. I am still waiting for the last punishment he has promised me. And tonight might be that night. He knows waiting is my biggest punisher. The mind game of it all is the harshest of them all.


This past week I have done nothing but thinking about myself and how bad my life has been these past few days. But it is Thanksgiving and there is a lot for me to be thankful for….

My kids…They are the most incredible gifts anyone could ask for.

Master C… I’m glad I was able to meet someone like him.

My blog… Is my day to day release.

My followers… Without all of you my blog would be worthless.

My friends…Old or new, I’m glad you are there for me.

There are many things to be thankful for. I know I didn’t mention all of them. I wish all of you a Happy and safe holiday.

P.S. I am on a diet so please…every one of you eat a piece of pie for me then email me what kind of pie you had. I need my fix somehow. LOL

Monday, November 23, 2009

Moving Day Can't Come Soon Enough

Just under 1 ½ months before I am able to move out and be free from my ex boyfriend. The time seems to be dragging on and on. I think this past weekend John has come to realize that I am not joking and I am leaving. I started to go through the rooms and throw out what I can. I need to downsize a lot. I am going from a 4 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom. It is not easy. The good thing is, I can now come and go as I please. And Master C and I can be together without having to be questioned every time I leave the house. I will finally be able to live the life I have been fantasizing about for years. This is a big step for me but one I know I have to take. Thank you to all of your advice and support. Those who have been following me since the beginning know how much you have meant to me. Wish me luck!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Thursday, November 19, 2009

8 Orgasms

Last night I met up with Master C. He has a vacant apartment so we went there for a bit of a quickie. There is nothing in the apartment…just a floor and an open window. Master always gives me orders before we even meet and this time was no different. He wanted me to take off his pants and get on my knees. We started off with me giving him oral sex. After that he had me stand up and take down (not off) my pants and panties and had me turn around and hold on to the window sill. He is so wonderful… within a minute he had me cuming as he was fucking me. Then he moved to my ass. I had not had anal sex in quite some time and I didn’t think his cock would go in. But he forced himself and it hurt like hell but once in he had me cuming two more times. The O’s would not stop. He fucked me on the floor missionary, doggie style, then oral to him, and missionary again. Master C is an animal. His shows his age by the experience he has.

In the end he was on the floor and I jerked him off until he cam. I took it all in my mouth and swallowed. I am really starting to enjoy taking his gift in this way. Thank you Master for the 8 orgasms you had given me.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Thought of the Day

Pain Sluts

Pain Sluts…This is a term I have heard about since I started with this D/s lifestyle. My guess is that this means there are woman out there who enjoy pain and torture. This is a hard thing for me to understand. I do like pain but not in the extreme. Now being a sub I know pain comes with the territory and I do not use safe words. And I will accept punishment when my Master thinks it is deserved. But I do not enjoy pain being inflicted on me as a way of having fun.

But I do enjoy being my Master’s little slave, to do as I have been told and to please him in any way possible. I know that he is not pleased with me at times because of my situation at home (this I posted about last week) but I want him to know that if I could change things right now, I would. For I adore you very much.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Thought Of The Day

All my life people have known me as an independent, strong willed, stubborn woman. Deep down all I have ever wanted was to be a sweet, open, submissive, a sex slave. And after years of fantasy I am now living this life secretly. I feel like a double agent. And only you, my followers, know who I really am. I don’t know if I am living a dream now or am waking up from one. This is the dilemma I face. Are you living the same way?? Do you think that most subs are facing the same issues?

Long Sleepless Night

For the past 4 years I have had such problems with not being able to sleep. I think it has something to do with the birth of my son but I don’t want to blame him for my sleeping problems. Maybe its stress, maybe it’s the fact I used to get up with the baby 5 times a night and I’m now used to it. Who knows? I now take a mild sleeping pill at night and it really seems to help but last night I woke up about 2:30 and could not fall back to sleep. And after lying there for over an hour I realized how horny I was. My son decided to sleep in my bed so I wasn’t able to help myself so I went out in the other room with my lap top. I ended up looking at porn sites. And for the next 30 minutes I got real sleepy. I guess these porn sites don’t excite me like they once did. I got bored and put me right to sleep. What do you think? I think we need something different.

Monday, November 16, 2009

The Movies

It was 12:00 and we walked into the almost empty movie theater. We headed up to the last row and took our seats. We are there to see Paranormal. And yes, movies like this freak me out. Anyway, the previews started and Master C was already down my pants. Playing with my clit and sticking his fingers deep inside me. I was already wet and so horny. It had been a week since we were last together. He backed off a little when the movie started giving me time to play with him. I reached over and started to play with his cock. I can tell he had been horny as well. I started off slow but before I made him cum he started on me…Making me cum by playing with my clit. My breath is short and getting louder but I try to stay quite so we are not noticed. And he did it. He made me have my big O. It was incredible. By this time I am moving my hand faster on his cock. I can hear low moans coming from him and then he erupts. So I bent over him and started to suck. I wanted him to be proud of me for swallowing without being asked or forced. I did this for him. He gave me his gift and I took it from him.

The movie was about ½ way over so we watched it together and I lightly played with his cock. It was the most arousing movie I had ever gone to ;-)

Friday, November 13, 2009

A Walk In The Park... Boston

Last night was cold and wet so my Master and I did not get together. It was disappointing but the promise that I will see him this weekend brings me hope.... I was looking through some old files and came across this story of my first real love. He wrote this story shortly after this event happened. It was several years ago now but I have always treasured it. And it reminds me of what last night should have been. This story takes place in the fall in Boston.... 

The evening had come to pass after a long joyful day of love making. We had teased each other from afar for so long, with late night phone conversations that continued into the dawn. The shyness that new lovers fell was absent from our first encounter. There was a feeling of familiarity about her, but the total excitement of the first sex was fully present as we dove into the soft linen sheets.

As we strolled through the park, I was startled at how beautiful she was against the autumn dusk, with her hair reflecting the color of the changing season. I could feel my life changing with the season, and I knew I would never feel the same again about myself or the world. This girl was special, maybe too special for me, a lost wretched soul.

We stopped in front of a group playing pickup basketball. In the dim light, we could see the peasant folk walking their dogs for the night and enjoying the few remaining pleasant nights before the scourge of winter.

She abruptly stopped and took my hand in hers. I could feel her life beating through her veins faster and faster as our lips touched. I remember feeling her hands on my body, working down my back gently measuring every inch like she was drawing a map to my heart.

I looked into her eyes and I could see the vastness of her soul through those eyes, stretching out like some undiscovered land. I wonder if anyone had ever explored her soul and what they found, what would I find if I dared to enter.

She sat down on the bench and looked up at me with a sinful grin. She pulled out my cock and looking around to see that people were watching, she took it into warm, wet mouth. My cock immediately came to life and seemed to grow larger with each breath.

I could hear her breathing becoming deeper and faster as she licked my swollen head. The basketball players were now stopped and watching intently as she moved her tongue around my balls.

A pair of well-dressed dog-walkers, were now stopped 10 feet from us with their mouth's wide open, as I shot a huge load into her inviting mouth. She continued her soft sucking until I was soft.

She looked up at me and laughed and began to playfully run away. I caught up to her, wrapped her in my arms and whispered into her ear… "I think I have always loved you".

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Tonight Part II

 I just found out that I might not be getting it tonight. How frustrating!!. My Master loves to keep me waiting. He loves controlling my sexuality and my mind. I think it gets him off. I will have to let you know if I cam in the park or alone in my bed. I am so horny now and wet thinking of what could happen tonight


It has been 5 days since I have been with my Dom. Tonight I am hoping to break that cycle. We are going to meet in the park. With no lights and lots of trees, we should have no problem being discreet. Of course my sounds during sex can get quite loud. He has this way of making me lose all control over my body. He can get me to tremble within minutes and then again a short time there after. It is exciting, heart pounding, and erotic. Tonight the temperature should drop a bit and I wonder will that will play into the excitement.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Anyone who knows me, know that I lead a very complicated life at the moment. I am writing about this because so many of you want to know why I struggle within myself so much. So I am using my blog to vent just a little…

I currently live with my ex boyfriend. I live with him until the lease on my other house is up and I can move back in there. This is a very difficult situation because I have a Master now that I adore but because of my living situation I need to thread carefully. And to top it off, I am looking for a new job because my boss is bipolar and refuses to take his meds and makes my work life a living hell.

But with all of that, I want to tell all of you that I enjoy writing this blog everyday. I get the greatest joy hearing from all my followers from all over the world. I love the audience and love reading all the different comments that inspire me to write everyday.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

The Walk Home

After a pleasant dinner with friends, full of suggestive jokes and risque banter, you and I flirting all night, touching each other under the table, we walk home, laughing, hugging, stopping along the way several times to kiss, grope each other, giggling. We turn the corner onto a quiet street. You lean me against a lamppost while we embrace. I have on a leather skirt. You are kissing my neck, biting lightly, and you slide my hand down and pull up my skirt, running your hand up my thighs, feeling my ass. I am groaning, hugging you tighter, your hot breath in my ear as you whisper your desires to me. "I want to fuck you right here, on the street.” My pussy is so wet. I want your hard cock deep inside me now. God, I'm so fucking horny! My hands are rubbing the front of your pants, feeling your hardness through the material. Your hand finds the elastic of my underwear, pulling my panties down, feeling the warm dampness between my thighs, you slide my panties down to give you access. You fingers explore my moist pussy, first one, then two fingers… Now I am really getting excited, your mouth finds mine, our tongues entwined. I reach down and unzip you jeans, feeling your hard erection, releasing it from its constricting confines.... You lift me up, sliding against the lamp post, then you position yourself at the entrance of my awaiting, wet, pussy. It takes a little wiggling around, then you feel the opening and left me onto you, engulfing your hardness completely. With both hands holding my ass cheeks, slowly, you raise and lower me. My legs wrapped around you, the lamppost providing a little support. My ass is completely exposed now. I am moaning, "oh yeah, oh yeah, fuck me, fuck me, I'm so fuckin' wet"… Just then a car turns the corner, and slows as it sees us. A couple of college kids are in it, they let out loud wolf whistles. They stop, watching us fuck under the streetlight. This just encourages me, I love an audience I am squeezing you tight, moaning harder, You feel my thighs start to tremble, I am cuming, we fuck faster, the contractions of my PC muscles on your cock are having their effect, You are cuming too, as you groan and moan, Your hot cum squirts deep inside me. Slowly, as your cock shrinks, I slide off, you lower me to the ground, my legs are shaky after the powerful orgasm, you hold onto me, we kiss passionately. The kids in the car cheer and drive off, I wave to them. We rearange our clothing, and walk home hand in hand, while you whisper what you are going to do to me in round two when we are home in bed.

Monday, November 9, 2009

He's Home!

I had not had an O in 2 weeks. I was horny and needed it bad. My Master just got back from a long business trip and I met him at noon in a vacant apartment that he owns. I know I was there for him. To make him happy and satisfied but I could not wait to see him.

Earlier in the week I got myself into a bit a trouble and I knew once I saw him I would have to take my punishment with his belt. Thankfully, he was as horny as I was and I stripped naked then I stripped him. For the time being my punishment was forgotten about.

We were having a good time…We were on the floor, I was mostly on top and he was controlling my O’s. It was a little frustrating to me, but after a while it was a great feeling. I cam several times and each time was greater then the last.

Then came the finale… he gave me a piece of him. He filled me up, gave me a kiss…then it was time to go.

Thank you My Master for your gift.

Friday, November 6, 2009

The Weekend

For those of you who have been following me for a while then you know I do not post on the weekends. So Have a great one and I will see you all on Monday. Love ya 

One Horny night

I don’t know if it is the emails that I get from my followers or the fact that my Master has been away for so long but the other night I woke up at 2:30 am so horny. I could not get back to sleep so I decided the only way to get my beauty rest was to take out my magic wand and pleasure myself.

It does not insert but just lays on my clit. It is powerful and sends a high speed charge through my body and makes me tingle. It works fast so my fantasy has to be one of a fast quickie that takes over immediately. So my thinking was I had gotten in big trouble and was sent to my room. My big and assertive Master turns me around and bends me forcefully over my bed and after a short spanking he fucks me from behind. Fast and hard just how I like it, then I cam.

The vibrator did as its job with perfection. I am relaxed, tired and I fall asleep.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

A Rainy Day

The room is dark, no sun
We lay on the bed,
listening to the rain pitter-patter on the roof
Nothing to do today but snuggle

I ruffle my hands through your hair
And lean over to kiss you deeply
You pull me close, our bodies touch
It feels perfect, natural to be so close

It does not take much,
just my silky touch
to make your cock erect
I see it rise,
and to my surprise,
you lean over me
and I swallow it, whole

I am slow, gentle
You lay back, enjoy the pleasure
I lick up and down,
slithering my tongue
Occasional trips to your balls
It feels so good to you

I pick up speed,
I feel your hardness intensify

As I suck harder, your breath quickens
I feel the surge building
As the spurt begins, I lift my head up
It hits my cheek
And runs down my chin
I simply grin.
as I lick my lips.

Need A New Employment Opportunity

I know I have many followers out there who enjoy reading my blog but I need a favor if any of you can help me out…. I am looking for a new employment opportunity. I am currently working as an executive assistant / property manager. I have over 5 years at my current company and I have 10 years experience as a social worker. I live in South Florida and would like an opportunity to interview with you or your company. Please email me and I will send you my resume. Thank you

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

My Apology

Swallowing is something that I have always had an issue with… I’m not sure why it is such an issue. Maybe it’s the taste, the texture, or just a mind thing. I know some woman have no problem with it but for me there is anxiety over the whole thing. And to my Master I am sorry that I am hesitant about doing it. I promise in the future I will and will do it without being asked. This is my apology to you.

From my Master “You should never have to be asked or told it should just be done, like being fucked in the ass..Did I ask you if I could. NO, I just did it. “