Tuesday, November 30, 2010

My Life

It seems like forever since I last posted. I have missed logging on and chatting with you all. I got a new computer at work and its great. It is a huge touch screen that is a computer and TV. The only problem is I can no longer chat on yahoo messenger. The boss doesn't want to download it. You have no idea want that is doing to me....

This is not starting out as a good week for me. This morning my car broke down AGAIN. It is being towed as I write this. Every time I turn around the car needs something. Not only have I put $700 in repairs the past 2 months but it also needs breaks, tires and aliment. Plus I still have 2 years of payments left on it so I am sure you can see my frustration. The car was working wonderfully until I reached 100k miles and now it just wants to die. I need a new car and I am searching for a cosigner...I know its a lot to ask but if anyone is willing to help me out please let me know.

Besides from that...I had a pretty good Thanksgiving and started my Christmas shopping. I can't wait for this year to end. Things can only get better...Right?

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


This is a short work week for me so it will be a short blog week for me as well. I want to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. My hope is that this will be the last Thanksgiving I will spend alone. I don’t mean really alone, I do have dinner with my family and my kids. ( I do love being with them) But I mean I hope to have a man to share it with next year.

For the past 10 years, since my divorce, not once has anyone want to spend the holidays with me. I would love to be able to bring someone home or they invite me to be with them. Am I missing something? Don’t couples want to spend holidays with each other anymore?

So I guess my evening will be spent hearing how we need to find a man for Carrie. How my mother wants to set me up on a blind date with a friend of hers {eyes rolling} or I get to spend my dinner at the kids table because it’s the only single seat left.

Ok… I’m done complaining. I really do wish all of you a Happy and safe Thanksgiving. And wish you the best Black Friday Deals (My shoe size is an 8…in case you were wondering. Lol)

Love you all…

Monday, November 22, 2010


Over the weekend I went to see the Broadway production of Burn the Floor. It was great. As you all know my daughter is a dancer so as a treat I got her tickets to the show. No story really…just great music and lots of dancing. It was right up my daughter’s alley.

It got me thinking… I tend to go to a lot of shows like this. The ballet, musicals, dancing type productions and I always see them in a different light. Dancing is very much a D/s theme. Hear me out… Take a man and a woman….In dancing the man is always the dominant partner. He is the one who leads and takes control. He always has his woman in his best interest. He cares for her, guides her, protects her. He is always there for her. He shows her he can be trusted.

The woman dancer knows that even if she were blindfolded (this happened in the show, quite impressive) she can trust that her man will be there to catch her. To hold her up and make sure she is safe.

I know most men think dancing is gay or not very manly but to think of it this way brings goosebumps to me. It is beautiful and only can hope that life is like this beautiful dance that never ends.

PS / UPDATE… Katie looked great on MTV. The show really brought out her bubbly personality and showed what an awesome dancer she is. Hope you all got to see it. Have a wonderful Monday

Thursday, November 18, 2010


This is the information that you have been waiting for…Katie will be on MTV this Friday at 5pm (Eastern time) The show is called “The Seven” MTV has been following Katie around this past week and they did some filming at the dance studio. I hope to see my daughter on there, but who knows. I cant wait to see her.

Love vs. Attraction

I was turned on to Safeword Magazine by our good friend DV (who has a published article…congrats to you) There was an article that really caught my attention called Love vs. Attraction. I never looked at my past relationships like this but it has really got my brain thinking. It states that all relationships are made up of Attraction or Love. Both feelings have much of the same symptoms and is hard to figure out what it is that you are feeling.

Attraction has very intense, lust, hard hitting emotions but is only good to fill the place until someone or something better comes along. This is why people cheat.

Love comes natural, the most reliable foundation for a relationship. Love is more than attraction by far! It's more of a desire to have someone as part of your life which is accompanied by the willingness to share future goals, caring (protective instincts) and the willful commitment of loyalty mutually shared.

I am writing this post because this really hit home for me. It’s not about living vanilla or D/s or any other lifestyle. Its about how we see each other in the relationship. If we can learn to understand our emotions maybe there will be less heartbreak in our lives.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Strange Thoughts

I have always had a hard time swallowing. It isn’t about the taste but more about the texture and given that it is real warm…I haven’t required a craving for it. Soooo, I am looking for ideas on how to get over it.

I have a friend who offered a couple of ideas. 1) To put it on a slice of toast. At first I thought, kinda gross but the more I think about it the more I like the idea. It would defiantly help with the texture issue I have. 2) Put it in a glass and then freeze it. Then take it in as a popsicle. Love this idea. It helps with the texture and the warm issues.

What do you all think? Got any better ideas?

I know this isn’t my usual post but sometimes I just get these thoughts in my head and I have to just write them down. And while I am on the subject of weird things to talk about… Is it possible to masturbate and not remember that you did it the next morning? This happen to me. I woke up in the middle of the night, must have did myself with my vibrator, then fell back to sleep. It wasn’t until I got to work this morning when I realized the vibrator was left out and what I did last night. Am I going crazy? Has this happen to you?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I'm Sorry Daddy

There's only one thing for it - you're going to have to be punished.

I've given you every chance to behave, and yet still you insist on behaving like a dirty little girl, masturbating secretly, thinking I won't know what you've been doing.

Such a little slut.
My little slut.
And you do know what a dirty little slut you are, don't you...?
I think it's time you admitted it.
Not that it'll save you from a spanking, of course. You still deserve to be punished.
But if you're prepared to admit to me what a dirty little slut you are, and if you bend over and take your spanking like a good girl, then I'll reward you afterwards. I'll slip my fingers deep inside you, and tease you, softly. If you're really good, if you tell me what a slut you are, and beg me to fuck you... then perhaps I'll allow you to touch me... we'll see ;)
If, however, you insist on being a brat, then you'll be spanked, hard. The particularly bratty ones amongst you will be tied up first, then spanked, and then made to stand in the corner.
It's up to you.
Are you going to be a good girl?
Then pull down your panties and bend over the couch...
Spread your thighs for me, I want to see you...
Admit to me what a slut you really are...

“Yes Daddy, I’m your naughty little slut. I have been masturbating while you have been away. I deserve what is coming to me…please forgive me Daddy.”

Monday, November 15, 2010


You all did it…you voted and Katie won. She was voted the best dancer. She won $5000 and will appear on MTV and go to the premiere of Burlesque on Thursday. She is so grateful to all of you that voted for her. She is such a sweet girl and perhaps this is her chance to get noticed by other dance companies…She has a bright future as a dancer and now thanks to all of you she will get to show her talent to the country and maybe the world.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Thank You

I know, I’m posting twice today but this is really important. To me anyways… Last week I posted how much I love shoes. And if anyone cared to send me a pair that would make my day. I really didn’t expect anyone to do that but he did. They are so sexy. I can wear them to work or out on the town. I LOVE THEM!!! Tall, black, and oh so sexy. Thank you my sweet follower and friend.

Now…I need a date


I read this the other day and it reminded me that sometimes we just assume our lover knows how we appreciate him or her ... and that it doesn't do any harm to remind them!

From Taken in hand... "If you were to die today, would your last moments be spent regretting that you had not sufficiently expressed your love and appreciation for those you love, or would you at least have the comfort of knowing that those you leave behind know how much you love and appreciate them? Would you be regretting not having done everything in your power to have the best relationship possible? Or would you at least know that none of the time you had had together was wasted?"

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


Over the past year, as I am leaning to become the submissive woman every Dominant dreams of, I sometimes have questions. It is not always easy to ask your Master / Dom simply because the answer will only benefit him and not necessary the honest answer. So here it goes…

I have learned over this past year you should not question why your Dom has you do something or only tells you what he thinks you should know, ect. But if your not getting the answers you need, should you be able to ask him for a direct answer, even if you don’t agree with his answer or explanation?

I would really like to know your thoughts as a Dom or a sub…

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

5 Things You Dont know About Me

It seems that I get new followers to my blog almost every day. Some stay and read my daily posts and others simply come and go. But it never seems to fail that they all try to find out information about me that goes beyond what is told on my blog. The truth is… My blog is very much all about me. Even when I write a fantasy, I talk about how I am feeling that day or how I would react or what I wish might happen. Every thing I write has a purpose and shares my true feelings, thoughts, and passions.

But I will tell you 5 things most people don’t know about me (or maybe you do…who knows)

1. I am a very forgiving person… I almost always forgive, even the most insane acts if given enough time to heal.

2. Unless you know me personally, I am a very shy person. I have a lot of trouble looking people in the eyes, and will start to giggle if I get nervous.

3. I hate getting older…I like being the young one in the relationship. (Sorry younger guys who keep asking me out)

4. To the outside world…I am very normal / vanilla You would never know by the way I dress or act that I am into D/s

5. I have a very hard time saying no to anyone. I will do anything in my power to help you out or try to please you. I guess that is why I am a good submissive but it is not always a good thing.

So my blog really is an open book into my life. It tells you my loves, my passions, my fantasies…it will also show you how much my kids mean to me and gives you an idea of what my vanilla life is like. If I have left anything out or didn’t point out something, please let me know.

Lova ya all…

Monday, November 8, 2010

Your Tongue

I want you, Sir. I want to wake up with your early morning hardon pressing into your bottom as we spoon. I want the leisurely fucking that becomes frenetic....

You start to kiss the back of my neck and before I knew it you push me onto my back. Your sweet kisses make their way down. Your tongue is on my slit, it is wet, you can tell how excited I am. Your tongue invades me, up and down, touching my clit briefly, I shiver.... I’m loving it. Your tongue laps at my pussy, I am moaning, I reach for my breasts, massaging them, playing with my nipples, twisting them, feel them harden... I want to cum, It would be so easy to cum with your tongue invading me… I push my pussy into your face, my hands on your head, pushing you… You stab my slit with my tongue, circling my clit... I start to entrap your head with my legs. I am almost there, I am squeezing you, breathing hard, moaning, You keep your tongue on your clit, I start to shiver, squeezing you more, your finger finds its way to my anus, circling it, my wetness has made my crack slippery, You slide a finger into my ass as I cum, and push hard, your finger all the way inside, my orgasm explodes… I am screaming your name, don't stop! don't stop! I am shaking uncontrollably, my body weak with pleasure.

Friday, November 5, 2010

I Miss You

It has been years since I slept the entire night with a man. In fact it has been more then 10 years. The story below is how I feel…not about my ex-husband but how I miss feeling that closeness.

I miss you, Master. I miss waking up with your early morning hardon pressing into my bottom as we spoon. I miss the leisurely fucking that almost always follows. I miss the days when I pretend to remain asleep and enjoy your fingers exploring my pussy, my ass, my breasts. I miss those days when I wake early, and draw the sheets back gently to see your stubbly face, your naked body, your hairy chest, your dark nipples, your beautiful cock. I miss taking it in my mouth, feeling its softness turn slowly to a raging hardon as I suck it slowly, waking you gently. I miss the grin that spreads across your face as, eyes still closed, you realize what is going on. I miss the way you pretend you are still asleep while enjoying my ministrations, the tell-tale gentle thrusting up to meet my mouth as I devour your cock. I miss the moment when all pretense is over and you open your eyes, and I know that the moment is near. I miss that moment when I stop sucking your rigid cock and move up to straddle it. To slide your big thick cock slick with my saliva into my dripping pussy. I miss starting to fuck you while rubbing my clit furiously. When you reach up and pinch and twist my hard nipples, while trying to hold back your orgasm till I've come. I miss that moment when my pussy begins to spasm, and I ride you hard, finally taking your thick cum deep inside me. When I collapse onto your chest, and kiss you deeply, feeling your cock soften inside me. I miss those morning fucks…

 Please come to me. Stop making me crave for you. I need this. I need to feel your closeness, your passion, your strangth in the morning.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

What's Your Kink?

I know that all of us have a certain kink factor, otherwise we wouldn’t be here reading each others blogs. Some of you are real kinksters while others simply hope that one day you will act upon your fantasies. I am sort of in the middle. I am not extreme but I do like to have fun and will try almost anything once.

What I want to know is what your true kink is? What gets you off? Do you have a fetish? I can’t say that I have a fetish but I do like a man with a really cool tattoo or two. It really just turns me on to be able to kiss it and touch that particular body part.

So I am opening the lines of communication here and tell me. I want to know your deep dwon kinkiest secrets.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Quick Favor

I would like to ask you all to do me a big favor. There is a contest being put on by MTV. My daughter's friend who she dances with is one of the 20 finalists from all over the country that are trying to win votes. The winner gets to be a dancer for MTV.

I am asking if you can go to www.burlesque.mtv.com and look for Katelyn D. from Palm Beach FL and vote for her. You can vote once a day until the 11th. Please lets help her out. She is one of the best dancers in the school.

Thanks so much

Power Ball

Powerball is up to $102,000,000 (boy that is a lot of zeros) I only mention this because one of my followers offered to give me a pretty big payout if he wins. I was like…hahaha ok. I hope he wins I really do and not just because I have a stake in it.

My question for you all today is… If you won the lottery would you give it to a friend knowing they would never be able to pay you back? Just do it out of the kindness of your heart?

Now that I am thinking about it…Do you think winning such a huge amount would make you friends or bring you enemies? Is money the route of all evil? I would love to take my chances…

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Sexy Shoes

Like most woman I suppose, I have a fetish for shoes. I love them more the jewelry. I love how they make me feel when I wear them. When I have on a tall pair heels, I feel sexy and hot. I am always in the mood for some sex or other types of adult activities. When I wear boots (heel or not) I feel professional, powerful, confident.

I don’t usually wear tennis shoes unless exercising but if I do…I like low, not to bulky shoes with no socks on. It seems to show off a lot of leg when doing that. I think my best parts about me are my legs. I think they are sexy and the shoes show them off. I know there are a few of you out there that would say my breasts are the best thing about me but I disagree.

So if you are looking to buy me a Christmas gift this year or a bday gift in March (HINT HINT) then shoes would be the answer. Fredrick’s has a nice selection this year. I fall in love easy with shoes but I tend to enjoy heels with a sexy strap around the ankle, rhinestones are nice too or something that is different. Off the runway type of shoe.

So if you would like to help me fill my closet… Kiss!!!