Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I have put my guard down and did do what he asked and I am learning to trust him more and more by the day. I know he would not hurt me physically (you know, not abusive) but I have been hurt so much in my life emotionally by men, I am afraid of letting that happen to me again.
I know this is not fair to Master C and I am making all efforts to change that. I just hope he knows how much I care for him and how much I try everyday to make him happy even though I know I mess up often. I truly do want to be a good Sub for him.